My wierd dream

Early this morning I was in a light sleep and kept getting woken up by a certain little boy. When I finally was ready to get up, I told Austin that I had a really wierd dream. In the dream I was in an unfamiliar apartment (sort of) and I saw all of these tiny moving what I thought were toys. But, the toys began to multiply and get bigger and they were talking. So we soon realized that they were not toys but were monsters or aliens or whatever. They were wanting kids but were chasing everyone there. So I grabbed Austin who was suprisingly light and just ran and ran through the apartment which turned into a factory and then into a barn where we found a ton of cars and trucks. We hopped into the truck parked at the rear of the barn and crashed through the door to escape. Well the aliens/monsters/whatevers hopped in a truck behind us and started tailing us. Of course this is where I woke up. So after a few moments to process, Austin says, "that was a wierd dream (pause) I mean why would a factory be next to a barn". I just laughed and laughed. On a different note, I had a health screening at work. They did a finger prick to test cholesterol and a few other things. My bad cholesterol was fine but my good cholesterol was very low. A woman's is supposed to be 50 or greater and mine was 15. Of course when I looked online to see how to increase it, the number one thing on every website says exercise. So I have a little extra incentive to get off my butt.

My Life on the Edge of a Nervous Breakdown

With minimal resources at work and because it is the time of year when things get crazy anyway, I find myself being a little pissy (pardon my language please). Today I left one school because I was being distracted by a class, went into another to find a worse situation. A first or second grade student was throwing a crying fit for 2 1/2 hours. Finally I could not stand it any longer and went to my office to cool down. Unfortunately it was a fairly unproductive day.

This turmoil at work, paired with my troubles with Austin is pushing me closer to the edge. Austin doesn't seem as affected by all the little jerks in his class as I am so you might ask "why can't you let it go" and my response "I DONT KNOW!" We did make an appointment for a psychological evaluation to determine what if anything is going on with Austin and why he is throwing such big fits. For now, one basketball season is over and another is beginning. Please pray that my sanity lasts long enough to make it through.

Wii Fit

When I finish the Wii Fit this evening it will officially make 3 days in a row of doing 30 minutes of exercize or more.

To further add to my year of wellness, I have decided to reduce my intake of artificial sweetner since someone told me it makes the body expect sugar and therefore hold on to food (making me fatter). This however has been more difficult. Initially I didn't think how many things have artificial sweetners in them (I'm not giving them all up though, just reducing). I mean what do these people expect me to do --eat fruits and vegetables all day;) Boo!

Loveless

I'm sad today. Feeling loveless and unappreciated.

Winter Break

I have officially been on winter break for two days. In those two days I have gotten absolutely nothing accomplished (as it should be). Tomorrow, however, I will begin my work around my house that gets neglected throughout the year. Austin is with his dad this week so I should be able to get a lot done. He will be coming over one day to make a gingerbread house for the party on Christmas Eve.

Christmases Past

just thinking of some Christmases past

Reflections

Reflections on my 2009 post to my blog entitled 32 Goals for my 32nd year:

Mainly, I did not meet hardly any of my goals. But 32 is far too many. I am going to concentrate on celebrating the accomplishments that I did complete or partially met.

#10 I did get my custody arrangement settled
#13 I did go out more socially (which considering it still isn't much, is kind of sad)
#18 I have made more of an effort to show kindness to strangers in small ways
#21 I do now play with Austin a little bit every day that I have him
#23 Since starting my new job, I have made some new friends
#31 As my facial redness has gotten worse, I do now wear makeup everyday to work, no exceptions!

This year, I have decided to concentrate on two and am in the process of deriving a plan on how to make them successful. 1. Lose weight and more importantly 2. find a way to be content with my life.