My Life on the Edge of a Nervous Breakdown

With minimal resources at work and because it is the time of year when things get crazy anyway, I find myself being a little pissy (pardon my language please). Today I left one school because I was being distracted by a class, went into another to find a worse situation. A first or second grade student was throwing a crying fit for 2 1/2 hours. Finally I could not stand it any longer and went to my office to cool down. Unfortunately it was a fairly unproductive day.

This turmoil at work, paired with my troubles with Austin is pushing me closer to the edge. Austin doesn't seem as affected by all the little jerks in his class as I am so you might ask "why can't you let it go" and my response "I DONT KNOW!" We did make an appointment for a psychological evaluation to determine what if anything is going on with Austin and why he is throwing such big fits. For now, one basketball season is over and another is beginning. Please pray that my sanity lasts long enough to make it through.

Wii Fit

When I finish the Wii Fit this evening it will officially make 3 days in a row of doing 30 minutes of exercize or more.

To further add to my year of wellness, I have decided to reduce my intake of artificial sweetner since someone told me it makes the body expect sugar and therefore hold on to food (making me fatter). This however has been more difficult. Initially I didn't think how many things have artificial sweetners in them (I'm not giving them all up though, just reducing). I mean what do these people expect me to do --eat fruits and vegetables all day;) Boo!

Loveless

I'm sad today. Feeling loveless and unappreciated.

Winter Break

I have officially been on winter break for two days. In those two days I have gotten absolutely nothing accomplished (as it should be). Tomorrow, however, I will begin my work around my house that gets neglected throughout the year. Austin is with his dad this week so I should be able to get a lot done. He will be coming over one day to make a gingerbread house for the party on Christmas Eve.

Christmases Past

just thinking of some Christmases past

Reflections

Reflections on my 2009 post to my blog entitled 32 Goals for my 32nd year:

Mainly, I did not meet hardly any of my goals. But 32 is far too many. I am going to concentrate on celebrating the accomplishments that I did complete or partially met.

#10 I did get my custody arrangement settled
#13 I did go out more socially (which considering it still isn't much, is kind of sad)
#18 I have made more of an effort to show kindness to strangers in small ways
#21 I do now play with Austin a little bit every day that I have him
#23 Since starting my new job, I have made some new friends
#31 As my facial redness has gotten worse, I do now wear makeup everyday to work, no exceptions!

This year, I have decided to concentrate on two and am in the process of deriving a plan on how to make them successful. 1. Lose weight and more importantly 2. find a way to be content with my life.

new teacher induction

So I had day one of my new teacher induction at St. Louis. I walked into the room on the third floor and immediately felt very hot. Since I'm always warm I thought maybe I'm just having a hot flash or something ;) then as I sat down for a moment longer I thought "no, this is really uncomfortably hot". I looked around the room to see many others fanning themselves. At the start of the meeting they informed us that the air conditioning was broken. I sure hope it is fixed by tomorrow because I'm not sure I can sit through another 6 hours in miserable heat and listen to things that don't apply to me anyway. I'm not much of a trooper. It just amazes me that I am supposed to start on Monday and I don't know where to go, I have no assignment yet, I have no supplies and no email. Nice start huh? Welcome to St. Louis Public.